Tid Bits :)

So I forgot to mention what happened when I came home last night.  Right in front of the door hopped a little toad.  It scared the crap out of me!  Remember that this happened at night, so it was dark.  It kept jumping into the door, like it was trying to get inside the house.  If I opened the door, I knew the little toad would hop right inside, so there I was stuck outside.  I tried going through the front door, but I knew it would be locked.  So I finally got up the courage and very quickly opened the door and booked it inside.  Luckily I made it in without the toad getting inside either.  As I was rapidly coming through the door, there sat Sheryl at the dinner table with a very surprised look on her face wondering what in the world had just happened.  When I explained it to her she started laughing.  Dang, now that I'm thinking about it, I should have taken a picture of the toad.  That same night I went up to bed and decided to see if they had any free movies on YouTube.  They do have movies but I swear they are all a bunch of B movies.  All the good ones cost money.  I was actually able to find a favorite.  "Road to Bali" with Bing Crosby, Bob Hope, and Dorothy Lamour.  Love it :) Then that night I had the strangest dream.  In the dream I was sent home from Boston and was basically replaced by another PCA that Mark and Sheryl had found.  When I got back to Utah, I was left wondering why I was sent home in the first place.  I had no idea what I had done wrong and I felt like I had failed.  Then I was also mad because I got home after Snow College had started, so I didn't even have a chance to go back to school.  Weirdest dream ever!  I asked Reed about it later.  He said he thinks it means I'm stressed out about everything.  I'm stressed that I won't do a good job at work and I'm also stressed that I won't do good in school with the online classes.  I thought this was very interesting that he said this because its so true!!  Anyway, then today when I was driving home from church, another toll booth worker talked to me!  Maybe this is a common thing that happens in Boston that I am not aware of because this is the second time it has happened.  So I pulled up to pay my $1.65 and he said, "wow, oh my goodness.  Hello beautiful... what's your name?"  I said, "Camille..."  he said, "hello Camille.  My name is Mark.  How are you today?"  As I was rummaging around for cash I said, "Good.  Oh darn I only have a twenty.  So sorry."  Then he jokingly said, "Oh Camille nothing else?  No fives or tens?"  I said, "Nope sorry."  "Well you have a nice day.  It was nice to meet you."  "Thank you I said."  I have to admit that this guy wasn't as creepy as the last one.  He was younger, big African American... probably in his mid or late thirties.  I have to keep reminding myself that I'll never see these people again so it doesn't really matter :) Although, I do have to say that it is kind of nice when people find you attractive.  Moving on... I am starting online classes this Wednesday and I am kind of nervous about it.  But more than anything I'm sad that I'm not going back to Snow College.  I text Molly tonight and asked if she was back in Ephraim and she said yes.  I was homesick for College.  I wanted to be back there with her and Whit.  I didn't think that not going back would affect me at all, but it totally has!  I miss it.  I remember Dad saying to me last year before actually going to Snow in the first place that I would have the time of my life at school.  He said I would have so much fun that I wouldn't even want to come home.  At the time I didn't believe him at all.  I remember being so afraid and looking forward to the times that I would be able to go back home on the weekends.  Well he ended up being so right!  I had the time of my life!  It was a huge blessing to meet Molly and Whit.  Seriously if I had not met them, my year would have been horrible.  I would have been stuck in my prison cell dorm with a roommate that likes to draw sharpie tattoos of weird looking dragons all over her boyfriend's back.  I would have had to watch as they engaged in "tickle" fights... very interesting.  I would have also had to eat the same food everyday for the entire year in the badger den.  But because of meeting Molly and Whit,  I honestly could not have asked for a better school year.  I remember it was exactly a year and one day ago Dad, Mom, Savanna and Ken dropped me off at my Dorm.  It was unbelievably hard when it was time to say goodbye!  It was even so hard that we decided to go to Walmart first, buy a fan, and then drop me off.  I cried and my family cried.  I remember that day thinking how exciting it would be when the last day of school arrived.  My family would come pick me up with all my stuff and we would happily drive home.  Well the next day was Sunday.  Later in the evening after church, I called home crying because I was so homesick.  I didn't think I would make it through that day, or the next day... but I did make it.  Skip ahead to the last day of spring semester (which was about four months ago).  I was dreading the last week of school because I knew it would be the last week I would ever be in Ephraim ever again.  I packed up my car, said goodbye to Molly and Whit, and bawled my eyes out as I drove out of Ephraim.  Then I cried the rest of the way home.  Well now here I am in Boston and I feel like the exact same thing has happened again.  I dreaded coming out to Boston.  Like going to Snow, I knew it was the right thing to do.  I cried saying goodbye to my family.  I looked forward to the day I would return to them.  At first the homesickness felt unbearable, but now as the days move forward, even though it still comes, it comes less and less.  It is amazing though.  Already from this experience I have learned so much!  I have learned how real and how amazing the atonement is.  I've learned to rely on the Lord.  I have learned that it will all work out.  So even though I am so sad that I will not be going back to Snow this next school year, I know that good times lay ahead.  Already I've done amazing things that I would have never dreamed of doing before.  I've met Reed who is an amazing person and a great friend, I went to six flags, California, four different major league baseball stadiums, I've seen Boston, I've gone sailing, I've met incredible people and have gone to an amazing ward.  I can't complain about this experience because it truly is a once in a lifetime experience.  Don't worry, come May, I'll let you know what I'm feeling at the end of the Boston story.  To be continued...